In Loving Memory
Palm Beach Gardens, FL
I remember through my whole pregnancy and his entire childhood, I would sing "You Light Up My Life" to him whenever he had trouble sleeping. I sing it to him now and hope that he has the peace and tranquility he searched for here on earth.
He was the most beautiful boy I had ever known. Everyone always told me, even the people who knew him and were in contact with him during his last few weeks and days told me, that Jeremy was the most polite, respectful and caring young man they had ever met.
The following is an excerpt from the letter I wrote to Jeremy the night we lost him?:
I will miss you every day of my life, hopefully, not consumingly as I now feel - which would be unbearable! Your Daddy has only love and now pain in his heart where once was worry and concern. Your son, Little Joey - while he doesn't really even know you, will know the love and support you wanted to give and held for him in your heart, freely and unconditionally. I promise now as I always have - that Joey will know you as his daddy - he will know the wonderful, funny, loving, generous, sensitive, giving and even daring person he came from and he will love you, too!!!
Mommy and Daddy both love you and will always love you, Sweetie!!!
All my love with all my heart - forever and ever!!!
Tomorrow's my birthday and I only have one wish ... Miss you so much ~ All my love forever, as always! XOXOXOXO
Miss you bunches, Sweetie! Love & Kisses ~ as always! Mommy
We had our annual birthday celebration for you this evening and our balloons sailed eastward over the Honda Classic golf tournament toward the beach from our house. Joey was here to help and sent 2 balloons himself, a butterfly and Spongebob. Joey asked me if I thought you would know those were from him and I of course told him you were there with us and you knew he was here and loves you for it.
I miss you sweetie, but I was not going to let today be a sad day. When the tears came I fought them off with everything I had in me ~ it was the best day of my life when you came to me that beautiful morning at 7:35 a.m. Be a sweetheart and come visit me sometime ~ I could really use one of your hugs!!!!
I love you so much ~ Happy 32nd Birthday, Sweetie! XOXOXOXO Mom
– From Anonymous on January 24, 2013
Miss you, Sweetie! XOXOXOXOXOXXO always! Mom
It's been 5 years since I heard your voice and even longer since I held you in my arms ~ I stayed up most of the night trying to feel the moment you took your last breath to the point that I couldn't breathe myself ~ I miss you just as much as I did 5 years ago! I love you and my heart aches for you every minute of every day, Sweetie! All my love ~ always, Mommy
My eyes fill up in tears,
as I miss you through the years,
I lie in bed at night,
as I think of this scary fright.
I love you with all my heart,
I wish we wouldn't have to be apart,
I keep thinking that this can't be real,
I wish you only knew how I feel.
Tears roll down my face,
To see you in such a happy place,
I hope we will meet again someday,
So the pain inside me will wash away.
I am selfishly crying for you to come to my arms, Sweetie! Love forever! Mommy
I know you know that Granny died on July 7th, and she wasn't ready to go either. But maybe you can comfort her and make her feel welcome at God's place. Granny suffered for such a long time, different than you, but suffered just the same, and she no longer is in pain and can finally again walk on the clouds. Hopefully, you are already showing her around. I just couldn't write for a while ~ I fill my mind with work. But I hold you in my heart and mind everyday ~ all day! I just have to push that back to get my work done. I love you Jeremy and I miss you even more. Give Granny hugs and kisses for me, too! X0X0X0X0 Mommy
I had an exceptionally tough day today ~ missing you! I had to tell someone at work about you today so they could understand (even a little) of what I feel every day (all day) ~ but really, Sweetie, they have no idea (and I really hope they never do). I can't sleep ~ you are on my mind so much ~ more for some reason ~ and that I never thought was possible. Are you thinking of me? Are you missing me? I try so hard to remember all the good in your short life, but I am just feeling lonely right now ~ I miss you so!!! All my love ~ forever, as always ~ Mommy
I found this poem and it tells all: I love you Jeremy ~ I hope you still know that I still love you!!! This tells you how I still feel about you!
A Picture Of You
© Deborah Robinson
I only have a picture now,
A frozen piece of time,
To remind me of how it was,
When you were here, and mine.
I see your smiling eyes,
Each morning when I wake,
I talk to you, and place a kiss,
Upon your lovely face.
How much I miss you being here,
I really can not say,
The ache is deep inside my heart,
And never goes away.
I hear it mentioned often,
That time will heal the pain,
But if I'm being honest,
I hope it will remain.
I need to feel you constantly,
To get me through the day,
I loved you so very much,
Why did you go away?
The angels came and took you,
That really wasn't fair,
They took my one and only Son,
My future life. My heir.
If only they had asked me,
If I would take your place,
I would have done so willingly,
Leaving you this world to grace.
You should have had so many years,
To watch your life unfold,
And in the mist of this,
Watch me, your Mum (Mama) grow old!
I hope your watching from above,
At the daily tasks I do,
And let there be no doubt at all,
I really do love you.
Happy Valentine's Day, Sweetie! Your dad picked up Joey to bring me flowers. It was such a nice surprise. I love you and miss you so much, Sweetie ~ but I convince myself that your safe, happy and pain free and, though I am sure you are no longer suffering the turmoil you suffered for so long ~ I love you! Mommy
I have not written in a while, but don't think I am not thinking of you every minute of every day. Most days I seem to get through okay, but some still are turmoil inside. I try not to listen to your music every day now, just to lighten my heart a little more. Everyone thinks I should be "over it", but they have no idea and ~ honestly ~ I wouldn't wish this heartache on my absolute worst enemy. I love you so very much and look forward to your birthday the end of the month. Look for your balloons ~ they will be coming your way ~ I promise! All my love forever ~ miss you more than anything! xoxoxoxoxo Mommy
I love you so much and (still) miss you every day. We took Joey to JBR this weekend and seeing him in the pool ~ it was just like seeing you so many years ago yet, seemingly, just like yesterday. We both choked back the tears. You will always be the light of my life that flickers a little more from my tears. All my love, Mom
Hi, Sweetie! I think of you every day ~ all day long. I try to make you see that I am getting better at dealing with life without you, bit it is very difficult. I started a new job today and I know you are so proud of me. Please help me through these most difficult times. Love you forever!
Sorry I didn't do this sooner,but my computer is down. I"m at my grandaughters now. Her name is Brielle and her birthday is the same as yours. Just wanted to light a candle in your honor on your birthday. Peace and love.
Birthday Wishes for Your, Sweetie
Youâ€™ve been gone for a long three years,
But still it hurts and brings us to tears.
We know that you are up above
And every day you send your love.
So that is why when we think of you
Our love for one another comes flooding through.
Happy Birthday and Love forever!
Mom and Dad
We are sending you balloons for your birthday! Today you would be 30 years old ~ I miss you more than words could ever express ~ Happy Birthday, Sweetie!!! All my love forever!
My Dearest Jeremy ~ It's your birthday and we sent you balloons again today. You would have laughed your @$$ off if you were here. Your dad thought the wind was blowing in one direction and I thought it was blowing in the other ~ neither of us was right! The wind blew the balloons right into a 30 to 40 foot tree. I was practically hysterical ~ your balloons didn't go up to you ~ so, if you want to read your poem ~ you'll have to come down here because it is stuck in that damn tree. Your dad says there's a 24 hour window and if he needs to, he gets to chop down that tree to free the balloons in the morning so you will get your birthday poem. You know, I've been crying off and on all day. I went to work (because I had to) and was so busy, but still had a moody day! I was so afraid of not getting your balloons off before dark so I could see them rise to you in the heavens ~ I've been so worked up! But here you are, twisting the strings of those 9 balloons into the tree limbs. Finally, after a few hours of worrying about it, I see what is happening ~ finally! You, again, are making me laugh ~ at myself for all this hysteria. I love you sweet boy ~ and though our poem seems sad, it really is just a testament to how so very much we love you and miss you ~ please stay close, even if you can't come into my dreams so I can see you now and then. Just stay close like today and help me to carry my heavy, heavy heart. Happy 30th birthday, Sweetie! Your daddy and I love you more than ever!
Jeremy Even though we never met I feel as though we have. I can tell by the way your mom speaks of you and to you how very special you truly are. My heart is heavy as I write this for I know the searing pain in your moms' heart and soul. I was indoctrinated into this unfathomable "club" on June 22 2009 when I was blindsided by my son Dustins' untimely departure from this earth. I too believe that we will all be together one glorious day and thats what keeps me going day by day. Each day that passes we are all one day closer to that sweet rapture of embrace. Margie I misplaced your # but if you feel like calling me please do anytime 5614207300. Jeremy please give Dusty a hug for me I know all you young beautiful souls are together watching over your loved ones. with love Dustins Mom Nancy
I miss you every day, but especially today! Love, kisses and big bear hugs!!
Inever met you Jeremy, but I know your mom. I saw her last night at support group. I look forward to meeting you on the other side. Peace.
Dear jeremy, I would like to thank your mother for contacting me. I hope you saw all the candles that where lit for you! I wish you love and happiness, it looks like you have allot of friends to pick from on this site. I hope you will help your mom and son. I wish my son would have had a child, yours will be there to remind us of your spirit. Marie
Hi, Sweetie ~ I went to the candle light vigil on Thursday ~ it was beautiful and as moving as ever! I just was having a hard time recently, trying to write a new poem for you. I know you understand that I miss you every day and my not being able to write just confirms that. Hope to see you in my dreams!!! Hugs & kisses ... and all my love ~ always, Mom
– From Anonymous on October 30, 2010
So sorry you lost your son, I lost mine too, he was 28 and was very handsome and engaging. Sounds like what you lost. My son never had a child, hope your son's is doing well. I never thought my son would die before me. My son is tripi, hope you light a candle for him, I don't understand any of this.
WISH I WAS WITH YOU
I'm sending this note
Not just to say hello
But because todayâ€™s your birthday
Youâ€™d be 29, you know
I hope you're feeling special
Because today you should
If I could be with you
You know I would
I wished for you all that you desired
As you deserved the best
Having you in my life
I know I was truly blessed
I hope your feeling special
Because you still are
And you know I'd be with you
If I didn't live so far
Until I hold you again
Iâ€™m counting now the days, the years
And Iâ€™m looking forward
To that day with no more tears
I love you, Sweetie!
Your daddy and I sent you
Some balloons today
We stood in each others arms and
watched them float away
Amidst the tears
we began to laugh
as we saw them float
into the air traffic path
Then we cried again as
they flew out of sight
And I felt that pain
like that unforgettable night
In case you didn't know
I wrote you a poem
just to let you know
I still miss you so.
Let me know when you get it!
Love and Kisses, Mama!
(Feel my hugs!!!)
In Loving Memory.
We had a candlelight vigil for all of you kids and it was a real tear jerker! I miss you so much I still can't believe it! Your daddy and I baked pies for the support group and I told them how you used to help daddy bake. That was our tribute to you this month. Sometimes I feel okay because I believe you're okay. Then there are times that I just can't breathe; like you just left me yesterday! I feel like it's just me and you, as usual! I love you sweetie ~ I miss you!
Hi, my Sweetie!
Iâ€™m so sorry that I have not written in a while.
It doesnâ€™t mean Iâ€™ve forgotten you ~
How could I forget your love ~ your hugs ~ your smile?
It doesnâ€™t mean I donâ€™t miss you ~
I still miss you so ~ beyond any doubt.
Even though I donâ€™t cry uncontrollably
I think of you day in and day out.
Though Iâ€™m fighting to survive, I must confess
Life without you is so much less.
Then out of the blue, your son will say or do
Something in his devilish way ~ just like you.
It will make me laugh and Iâ€™ll hear myself say,
â€œI love you ~ you are just like your daddy!â€
Then I remember ~ again ~ and the laughter turns to tears
And Iâ€™ll wonder ~ how will I survive the years?
Heâ€™ll lay his head on my shoulder and give me a hug, just like you
And heâ€™ll whisper, â€œI love you, tooâ€, just when I need him to.
It doesnâ€™t mean I donâ€™t hurt any more or love you any less or that my heart is not still broken.
It just means that my pain and grief are little less outspoken.
Love you always, Sweetie!
– From Sara Feinstein on April 28, 2009
Oh Jeremy, where to start. I'll never forget how cute you were, I thought you were the most beautiful baby I ever laid eyes on. You had the biggest smile (and the loudest yell). I know exactly how proud she was of you, and how she worshipped you.
I can not change the way things worked out, but I can tell you that you never had a friend who loved you or cared for you, or worried about you, or just worshipped you like your Mommy and Daddy. Your loss has affected everyone that ever knew you or your family. It is so sad, and I'm so sorry that we weren't closer...not that I think that there is anything that I could have done to help you shake the pain, but I sure would have done more if I'd gotten to know you better. It makes my heart hurt to know how miserable you must have been, and to know how much pain you must have carried. Now your Mommy and Daddy are carrying the pain, and they will forever. The term that comes to mind is that it feels like they have an elephant on their chest. It seems so unfair, but we all know that however bad we feel, however sad or lonesome, we know that you are in a happier, healthier place, and you are now cradled, not in the arms of your Mommy, but in the arms of God.
Until we meet again in eternity,
Kryse (Mommy's cousin)
I don't know what came over me. I went to church with Joyce Easter Sunday. (I guess if I was going to go, there couldn't have been a better day than Easter). I guess Easter was a little emotional. Anyway, I was remembering all those years of getting to play the Easter bunny and making your baskets. It kept playing over and over in my head ~ it was really nice, and also at times, hard. But, I wrote a poem ~ yes, I ... myself ... wrote a poem for you and here it is (I didn't give it a title until just this moment):
My Dearest Jeremy, I'm Sorry!
He was my only child and I love him so.
I'm sorry that he thought I hurt his feelings;
I am sorry he suffered inside.
I am sorry he thought I wasn't there for him;
I'm sorry I wasnâ€™t there when he died.
I'm sorry I can't change any of it now.
I wish I could have helped him to see
the drugs were not his friend at all.
But they got hold of him â€“ I donâ€™t know how ...
though it made it easier when God came to call.
It's been just over a year now
and I still wish I had just one more chance,
but it was like he was in a hypnotic trance.
So now I try to remember the best ...
I know heâ€™s happier, heâ€™s healthier â€¦
I know now heâ€™s no longer stressed.
My life goes on with such despair
And yet seemingly at times without a care,
Then I remember again heâ€™s with God.
I canâ€™t wait to again hold him in my arms
I do declare!
My heart goes out to his parents and baby Joey! I just saw this online and am very sad. Jeremy, I remember playing cards at the pavillion and breaking your nose (accidentally) while playing HORSE at the park. I will miss you and I wish that we could have kept in touch.
I miss you cuzzzy <3 never ganna be forgoton.
IT SEEMS LIKE ONLY YESTERDAY
Written by Jan Andersen
It seems like only yesterday
I rocked you on my knee,
With dreams about the future and
What you were going to be.
You were so bright and happy
Such a precious little boy,
You gave your love to everyone
And filled our hearts with joy.
Strangers would admire you
And stop to say hello,
"He'll break a lot of hearts," they said,
"In twenty years or so."
But less than twenty years from then,
What they said came true,
As we were forced against our will
To say goodbye to you.
A life so short and unfulfilled,
With so much left to go,
"Why, oh why?" we ask ourselves,
When we all loved you so.
Life shows us many options,
But whichever path we take
The destination's still the same
Whatever choice we make.
So many questions flood our minds,
"What if, and Why and How?"
If we had done things differently,
Would you still be with us now?
I don't know what the lesson was
That you were sent here to learn,
But now your purpose is fulfilled
It's time for you to return.
When I hear the phone ring
I expect to hear you say,
"Alright Mum? What're you doing,
Can I come 'round today?
But you don't need to ask now,
You're with us every day,
Within our hearts, our minds, our souls,
Your memory will stay.
No fear, no pain or sorrow,
Can touch you anymore
But the love you've left behind,
Will live with us forever more.
All my love, Mom
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SWEETIE! THIS POEM IS EXACTLY HOW I FEEL WITHOUT YOU!
TO LOSE A CHILD
Written by Susan Tawil
Tears without end
Days without nights
Night without day
Time without forgetting.
Food without taste
Sleep without rest
Sorrow without comfort.
Pain without limit
Emptiness without bottom
I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND MISS YOU MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY!!
Jeremy, the light of my life, was an adventurer, he would try anything! He swam like a fish by the age of 4 â€¦ went parasailing at 6Â½ â€¦ loved roller coasters â€¦ ate his 1st lobster at 7 and he always loved dessert, even broccoli or brussel sprouts if you called it â€œdessertâ€. At the age of 8 he almost ran off the edge of the Grand Canyon, but as usual was saved by his daddy ~ he had no fear! At age 10, he took 1st & 2nd place in a photo contest of Jack Nicklaus on the PGA golf course; and dressed in drag for Halloween! Jeremy was always acting up & joking around â€¦ and teasing me because I always took him so serious â€¦ he loved to laugh and make others laugh â€¦ he loved deep and when he felt hurt, he hurt deep! Jeremy, I miss your big laugh and pretty smile â€¦ your funny jokes â€¦ your beautiful face and all those expressions â€¦ your sweet voice â€¦ and most of all your strong arms that you used to wrap around me! But, just like the song I always sang to you â€¦ â€˜You Light Up My Life ~ You give me hope to carry on â€¦â€™ (even now!) Iâ€™ll Always Love You, Sweetie! Mama
A funny story about Jeremy. I remember when he was somewhere between 7-10 years old, Tom Sr., Margie, myself and Jeremy went to see Jai-Alai. We were watching the commercials all week, and he was excited to see it in person. We got there, and he wasn't too impressed. We watched for about a 1/2 hour and then he turned to us and said "When are they going to light the balls on fire?" Which at first we were all a little confused until we realized that on the commercials, they were touting how fast the game was and the balls were actually fireballs in the commercial. Needless to say, I think he was disappointed. I have to say, I was a little disappointed too, the game would have much been way better if the balls actually were on fire.
althogh I didnt know you I had the pleasure of meeting your mom and dad...they miss and love you jeremy
please rest in peace with god..
we will all see you again one day..in heaven...
I love you very much Jeremy.
You will be forever in our hearts.
We were just watching videos from Disney World. Loved your hat and watching you try to bite the camera!
Hey brother!! I know you're up there lookin down from above. Whatever happened to that band we were supposed to start up? I miss the jet skiing, the pavilion hangouts, and all the jokes we cracked on each other. I love you, man! Even after you started dating my exgirlfriend right after we broke up!! Ha, Ha...Jk. May God protect you in your eternal life, and remember....we all still love you!
Sweetie, I'm supposed to write a tribute to you, to your life, to my love for you or our love for each other. My heart aches everyday without you. I finally stopped looking at my phone afraid that I missed your call. Though I still cry for you everyday ~ not because you are with God, but for my own selfishness that I cannot hear your voice or touch your beautiful face or feel your strong loving arms around me anymore. If it wasn't for little Joey to hold me and love me, I think I would have certainly joined you by now. I have to go on for him ~ so he knows you like I do. I finally can remember the wonderful, yet scary, things you did without totally breaking down and sobbing. I still cry, but the tears now are bitter sweet of your memory. You are ~~ were my world that I let slip away! I still miss you so much that sometimes I still can't breathe! But now my heart is filled with so much love for you that it is finally starting to push out the pain! I love you sweetie ~ as always, forever and ever! Mama
May these messages from friends and friends of friends, along with your faith, help you get through this tragic time in you life as you realize that so many people of thinking of you.
MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS GO TO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY. MY JOSHUA HAS BEEN GONE 1 YEAR NOW AND I MISS HIM TERRIBLY-HE WAS MY JOY. MAY YOU FIND COMFORT IN YOUR SON'S MEMORIES AND HIS KINDMESS AND SMILE....LISA
Jeremy, I have loved you since I met you. I wish that I knew of the demons that you faced or knew what to do if I did know. I pray that you are in a better place now. I pray that if it is possible, please give your mother a sign that you are happier and that she will always love you and miss you to the depths of her soul, but that you are in a better place now. I love you so much, I didn't get a bye kiss and that is not right.
– From Jessie Wakefield on March 12, 2008
Sometimes life is like a book with just so many pages. Jeremy's book was too short but the life he lived within those pages were enough to leave a mark on the lives of the people who knew him and those who loved him. So, if your book has a few or many pages, make it the best you're able to be. Undoubtedly, it will be filled with memories, both good and bad but it is what you leave behind. May your heart find peace.
You'll always be in our hearts cuz. Your daring and fun nature left us with many smiles to remember you by. We love and miss you.