In Loving Memory
Joshua was my first child. He taught me how to love unconditionally. I didn't think it was possible to love someone so much. He was a bright, smart, loving child. But sadly he always had a saddness in his eyes. His father never showed him love. That was all Josh wanted was to be loved. I tried to love him enough for both parents. Joshua found heroin in his early twenties. I was in denial at first. I didn't know the dangers. I thought he would grow out if it. But I was quickly yanked out of denial by his steady growth of his addiction. I educated myself about opiates and was terrified they would take my baby. I did allthat I could. Josh tried so hard to get clean. He wwould have clean months and months and then he would go back. He battled his demons bur they won in the end. He was so smart. His sense of humor was great. He brought so much joy into my life and the lives of his friends. He was loved by so many. I was overwhemed by the love I recieved from his friends after he passed. He took care of his dying grandfather when he was 15 and took care of his elderly grandmother in his twenties. He had the best hugs in the world. His smile would light up any room. He was filled with so much love and compassion. I am honored to be his mom. I am so proud of him. I miss him so much and LOVE him with alk my soul. Addiction seems to take the best people. Addicts are labeled as bad people and yesin his aaddiction he did bad things. But that was nit who he was. He was a great man. The mist loving son, grandson, cousin, friend, boyfriend. He is deeply missed by many.I only wish that Josh had realized how much he was loved and by so many. Rest in paradise my sweet son. I would give anything to have you back. Mommy loves you to the moon and bsck.
Im deeply sorry for your loss my prayers are with you.